Another disturbing thread that slipped gently through the cracks, with only the Hapa children left picking up the pieces, while the world turns a blind eye.
Hi there, as the title states, my wife and I are both 26 and have been together for 5 years(married for 3). What It doesn’t say is that we also have a 1 year old daughter. My wife is from Japan and I am from Australia.
When I say I may be paedophile it’s because I’m not entirely sure , things aren’t entirely simple. I know that I have had OCD since I was 13 and particularly POCD since 14, combine that with the other thing I do know which is I am definitely primarily attracted to girls around 11-16 ( hebophile?) but i also find adults and younger girls( 7-11) attractive face wise, so i’m not entirely sure if it’s OCD or in fact a mixture of both. In fact it could be me being horrified of the thought that limits me thinking about girls that young.
If I am a pedophile I would be a non exclusive and non offending one, I wouldn’t ever do anything to a child. It’s taken me this long through alot of self torture and deep depression to get to this point of semi realization. I know I would never do anything to our daughter, it’s just I wonder whether my wife should know and have the choice. She has an amazing family and group of friends and i’m starting to feel like even more of a monster than I already am for taking that away from her by having her live in Australia with me, when if she knew the truth i’m not sure she would stay with me and I wouldn’t blame her.
tl;dr: Essentially I most likely am a non exclusive pedophile and all round nut, should I give my wife and 1 year old daughter from another country the choice of staying with me, or bury the secret deep.