"I'm not racist, my wife is Asian!" What it's actually like looking Asian with a far-right, anti-feminist white father, and a self-loathing Asian mother who hoped for privileged "white, blue eyed babies." An appraisal of fetishes and self-hatred.

Why does it seem that the men that pursue Asian women as a "last resort," are generally the most strange, racist, spiteful and hateful people – especially against Asian men, other minorities and white women? If Asian women prefer white men – why is this, and what happens to the children – especially if they look predominantly Asian? Compiled by Asian-looking Eurasians and Hapas themselves. A community effort to explore the unintended consequences of "white fever" and "yellow fever", racism, fetishes, power imbalances, stereotypes, and the effect it has on a staggeringly large, growing, and unexplored new demographic. Why does it seem the children of Asian men and white women fare better and are more successful? Why is there such a double standard against Asian men and white women, whereas Asian women essentially default to white men? What happens when Half Asian sons resemble Asian men? Why do so many white supremacists, alt-rightists, and white nationalists have Asian partners? Why do racist white men fetishize Asian women, and why do Asian women fetishize white men – and what does that mean for the children? Compiled by the son of a racist white father and a racist Chinese mother.

My half-Asian horror story of a Nazi white father and mentally ill Chinese mother – and why you need to start paying attention

 I am a Eurasian with my face and name all over the internet. I have received thousands of comments and letters of support from other Eurasians and Asians (mostly women who are not self-hating), who recognize this trend. The real reason I have this blog is because I am sorry for the things I did as a result of my background, and because I want to protect the decent people who will be inevitably victimized by the children of couples like my parents. I have a moral imperative to make it well known that this happens, regardless of how long it takes. These children will be violent, will be racist, and will target Asians, white women, and  people of color. People need to know about the white supremacy within Asian culture, and how this makes Asians prey for the worst, most evil men on the planet – and how this creates, bar none, some of the most deranged, mentally ill children to ever exist.

I will do this in bullet point format:

  • My father has always been autistic, far right, antisocial, and raised by a racist white mother (my grandmother) who adopted several Asian children who she claimed “immigrated the right way.” There was never any way that my father could possibly have found a woman who was not Asian. Whenever confronted with her utter and complete hatred of immigrants, she sites her adopted children as proof that she is not racist, saying that “they can do it the right way, why can’t anyone else”.
  • My father is a Holocaust denier, an anti-Semite, an extreme paleoconservative extreme homophobe (????????) who wishes for society to revert back to how it was in the 1950’s, refuses to watch or read anything made after 1950, refuses to earn money due to it being “Jewish gold”.
  • He claims that the Holocaust never happened, but it should have.
  • He married my mother, a Chinese woman with several siblings, one of whom was an abusive know it all brother.
  • My mother was mentally ill, like many Asian women, suffering from extremely crippling self esteem issues due to her appearance. This was worsened after growing up in Hong Kong but found herself struggling to survive in America which was much more run down, violent, racist, and difficult to earn a living in than back home. This made her much more hostile.
  • I was born by C-section, after which my mother received a bad blood transfusion, leading her to get Hepatis B and gradually die over a period of 13-14 years.
  • My father apparently married an Asian woman with the belief that she would be loyal to him, a white man who was suffering from multiculturalism, feminism, and an anti-white agenda.
  • Apparently my father’s ex girlfriend had left him for a man of color – a banker for the Colombian drug cartel (yes, really).
  • My mother and father consistently fought and argued, and of course my father was made to sleep on the couch after failing to make enough money to support my brother and I. I don’t recall them every telling each other they loved each other, and my mother admitted to me that she only married him to “give me a better life,” and my father, towards the end of his life, told me that “Chinese women are very hard on their husbands.”
  • My father stayed up late listening to conspiracy theorist HAM radio, frequented by anti-Semites, far-rightists who believed in things such as the Illuminati, Zionists, the Protocols of Zion, FEMA camps, chemtrails.
  • My father would spend hours reading Ezra Pound and other anti-Semite writers.
  • My father once threw out a video cassette of Schindler’s List, which my mother was watching, calling Speilberg a Hollywood Jew; he repeatedly tried to control what my brother and I watched and played, trying to avoid black or Jewish representation.
  • My mother was violent towards my brother and me, Tiger Momming us to get better grades and beating us when we failed, hitting us with coat hangers, knives, belts, while showing preferential treatment to my older, more Asian looking brother while practically ignoring me because I looked whiter.
  • She was extremely aggressive, negative, controlling, and violent; constantly badgering both my father and my brother and I, constantly insulting him and constantly dragging me into her bedoom to tell me how horrible my father was.
  • She wore bright red lipstick, covered herself in sunscreen and wore giant hats to keep her skin “white”.
  • She obviously refused to touch or have intimate relationships with my father, having married him exactly for the purpose of control; this exacerbated my father’s behavior.
  • My mother carried out covert incest with my brother and I, bringing us into her bedroom while she was dying, trying to tell us what a horrible person my father was.
  • My father’s behavior became more erractic as a result, believing that Jews and blacks were causing chemtrails, FEMA camps, and that blacks were destroying the world. The lack of affection and a fulfilling marriage made him even more into anti-white conspiracy theories.
  • He would consistently attack white women and feminists, expecting me to do the same, and never attempted to help me understand my Asian heritage.
  • He would refuse to listen to or watch any media made after about 1950.
  • He was adamantly anti-gay, believing that gays were the sign of the apocalypse, and spent much of his life attacking gay people.
  • He called Jews and Muslims the children of Satan.
  • He repeatedly badmouthed immigration of non-white people.
  • He called Chinese people the “Jews of the Orient,” and insulted my mother’s brother for being “obsessed with gold” like Jews were.
  • He repeatedly yelled at me for “talking like a black man”.
  • He stopped working because he believed that 9/11 was a result of the Apocalypse brought about by Jewish dominance of the world.
  • My mother essentially killed herself out of depression due to lack of money, and the fact that her husband was a Neo Nazi loser, and the fact that she found herself living in the ghetto in America, when she foolishly believed it was like Hollywood movies – something Asians tend to do.
  • My mother’s family to this day absolutely refuse to apologize for this, because Chinese culture demands that we save face and keep the fact that Nazis love Asian women under wraps..
  • My mother’s family refuses to believe that my brother is a paranoid schizophrenic who has been arrested several times, because mental illness doesn’t exist in Chinese culture.
  • My father’s family (especially his mother) refuse to believe that my father was a Nazi, because “we’re not racist, how DARE you” (while being extremely racist).
  • My brother is a 36 year old unmarried schizophrenic who has been institutionalized for the majority of his life now, has difficulty communicating and only recently has been able to function a little more normally due to taking 20+ pills per day.
  • Nearly every single person, including family members, repeatedly makes offhanded or racist remarks to me about my Asian heritage.

It was understanding that there are thousands of similar cases where men like my father cheat natural selection and blame it on Jewish conspiracies, that I recognized years ago this was a pattern, and that many children from these pairings will be completely isolated, helpless, and deeply fundamentally troubled.

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